1 week marhaban di >>KL

hiya all,

hope all well n doing great with whatever u up to today tomorrow n future...
well to make thing short i've been 'marhaban' for the past few days with ma unlce,aunty,cousin along with ma sisters lar...

well, am glad ma cousin doing fine with her life and it shocked me that her house so near to the place i lurve to visit...real close...

then showing ma aunty around KL and finally to the house where i wanted so badly to give a peek if some1 i miss happen to be there...but, well that saram not around caused on call....hey i miss u real badly lar...but not enuf courage to let it all out...batu terus hahaha...

ma aunt used to say this a lot well till now actuall...'haih,ko nie study ok,ape sume ok, tp boypren tarak.org dh bagi greenlight dah tolong macam2 tapi bile nk kawin'...

aiyark, macam baru beso jatuh atas kepala ku...semua asik ckp pasal kawin...kawin kawin..takda mende len ke??? ayat pedas tak hengat...huhu seb baik cara2 utk buat muke tak selambe dh mmg pro dh...but when she did it in front of his family aka my uncle's relative, rase nk sorok muke bawah meja....waaaaaaaaaa malu malu malu...

tulun tulun tulun.. >_<

okey, i admit am doing fine with anything else, but but but i dont have the guts to tell some1 my feeling..for me to admit that means he might think am an easy gurl or perhaps something wrong with me??? lotsa questions n assumptions, i think a lot pros n cons, so its hard to be me...analyzing the negatives n positives outcomes, what will happens next...well that's why am a researcher...yea am a "LAZY RESEARCHER"... because something bothering me right now...i wanted to let it all out in order to lift up some of this craziness burden inside ma head n my heart.

but the question is 'am i ready for the commitments'?
do i have enuf courage to do so?

what am i supposed to do?wish some1 can lend me courage n high spirit so i can at least have peace n happiness for my own....


thanks all for reading.

regards,
upside down merry go around me.

p/s:hope nobody related read this or i might used mask all the time... :)